lets have a change of mood.

its jus such a displeasure to see people not being what they presumed themselves to be.

while people here are taking taxi or even going 3 places a day.

disappointment huh?

hah not really.

cos i am jus used to it.

haha...joke...

today was dead tiring..

shall blog bout it tml or smth.

Hi,

for the 4 days since fri, i have been to orchard.

and for the past many days i have not been sitting down to take a rest

pissed.

saturday

christmas tree at raffles city.

me and my sis walked from bugis till orchard scotts-.-

this is a damn classic pic. hope i can get a better camera to capture it better.

at night it looks nice but haunted.

then we were at taka. with some church having some weird christmas deco.

wth are there indonesian community, japanese etc etc. its christmas-.- 

no link.

lol. our attempt to take pic when we are in the middle of the road. many ppl staring-.-

and we are like a couple man....

sun, me and my sis walked from city hall to scotts again.

wtf la. damn tiring. 

and we caught YES man. damn nice show.

its damn stupid but its rly worth it. i think its e best followed by 

nick and norah's infinite playlist.

tues, ytd.

skipped training to go celebrate my dad's birthday. its actually on 24th.

but e restaurant no space. so celebrate on 23...

the food was jus not worth e money la... to me...

though they were nice. but not exceptional.

my dad criticising bout the presents...as usual

yet another couple shot(:

the lights are good...and the reflection is nice 

romantic spot.

christmas tree at central

today at home.

wl. the cake was a real disappointment.

i am just really bored and practically blogging everything bout my life.

anw merry christmas!!!!

and tml or later should be fun.

damn. we should have went clark quay today instead.

skl work is still piling up. i think we should just burnt them and ignore their existence.

i dno when i can start doing and revising.

sun is monthly shoot.

thats all...

bye!

These are the best shots in my life-,-

but i had a stupid quarrel with coach zhang befor that.

i told her. if i use her method there will be a huge recoil.

den my bulets fly. den after 10 shots of shit firing. i did it.

but i still cant get the 'feel' of it. so i am not sure bout using this.

after e 2 cards i screwed up the last card-,- and got this.

den some one steal my cards-,-

ok. i am bored hence such post.

nxt week is coming and i am looking forward.

bye

this morning kena pangsehed by some ppl

so went orchard in late afternoon with mum to get christmas presents.

den, went training 

which i was damn happy as i hit 95/96. my personal best.(i am not being proud)

but i am proud of it la.

shall blog bout it tml=.=

maybe a picture to go with. 

heres some pictures of the past few days...

sunday...went training den went for the tjc concert

wl. the songs were nice but the band screwed up. 

only celebrate was alrite. the rest...cmi.serious. sorry for e tj readers.

I ate dis with jia yong in the afternoon. damn big...yankee burger

at the concert.

have no idea why they like the orange side of my jacket

they were testing my camera's smile shutter-.-

volcano ramen lol...

freak i spent 30plus on food that day...wth.

monday i wnet to vivo and tried kim gary restaurant. like i posted tat day

got my zara shirt changed.

tues, went training at the wrong time. i went at 130 when the training starts at 4

lucky got two other idiots like me who went early. 

in e end the training ended at 8 and i reached home at 1030wth.

ytd.

went out with dl and 107cum ppl.

damn funny went cafe cartel with ppl u dont rly talk with.

the rest sucks. din help to socialise.

so i was there in desperation for words to talk to them.

den.

went to buy bouquet of flowers for syjia. 

acting as tourist, cos another tourist was taking pic like this behind me-,-

my boyfriend

nice view.

yea. thats all.

going out now.bye

long day again

went many places today. 4 actually

anw, jus reached home...ha. i think i saw the person  man....lol...

but as still not sure.

went vivo was nt bad.tried kim gary's hk restaurant.

food was best for all e hk shit restaurants..

den...brian from cch tot my sis is my girlfriend. 

do i look so old or does she look soyoung? 

she say her friends also say that.

heres a pic.

haha...

like couple?

=.=

have not been blogging much recently.

i dno y sia....haha

ok...past week has been quite alrite.

monday played soccer with np guys, gx, yong sheng guys & ivan lim gang.

den kns...hurt my back yet again. dis time i flew and hit directly on my butt bone.

den we went swimming after soccer, den lunch den table tennis, den billard den some @#(&$ steamboat.

@#$% it man.

tues went training......fri went training too...

i will nvr take 39 back home again. 

training ended at 930, but i reached home at 12 including a short taxi ride from bedok

today went to catch nick & norah's infinite playlist....

its was a damn stupid and weird show.

with gays all over. but it was certainly entertaining.

tml will be training followed by hopefully pool and then tj's band concert...

quuite loooking forward to it. though i haven done my work on e songs first.

played the piano abit i guess.. starting on songs for christmas day. in case.hahah

shldnt be a prob.

mentally it has been rly weird and confused. 

lj for more(:

bye....

tml nid wake up at 7 again.

today was great...except for the trip back from safra.

969 was damn full so i have no place to sit when i am exhauted.

den.

when i reached tampines, i waited for damn long30 mins for 67.

fuck.

pissed.

took  1.5hr or even more hours to get home. knn.

was happy to have time at home. it jus feels so great.

after 15days of being away.

jus hoped i can rest well at home but my training and other things are just refraining me from doing so.

besides, i have a stronger sense of belonging ever since i retruned from the 12 day trip. 

jus makes a person know how wonderful singapore is.

still thinking bout her.

an impossibility but hopefully a possibility.

damn.

haha.

friends come and go.

yet few conquer the peaks  with you.

mental check

went to watch four christmases just now.

was a good show. at least not a disappointment.

i am still sweating like a freak. i think its jus my genes, but my fren told me i may be sick.

moving on.

my trip to china was fulfilling and useful. 

an eye opener, yet a it was nt a totally good social process for me.

ogl camp was a bomb. i did not want to go for the camp at all in the first place

due to exhaustion and also emotional purposes.haha.

 but in e end. it ended well and my grp A li got first!

it was certain fun with such a nonsense group which got 6 on first day and 1st on last day

i went for training last nite, after e camp. 

it was yet another attack on my mentality as i did not perform as well as i expect.

guess its just the pressure.

wad a bad thing its a mental sport.

was abit fedup with myself and got into a brawl with colleen.

nvm.

tml training at 930. hopefully it is useful.

lot more to talk bout. shall blog it else where.

wtf bbq..

back in sg, but went for the ogl camp....

really tired...

giong to watch movie with my sis now

bye.

blog tonite

blogging from china.


confirm gain 10 kg when i reach home....
thats all i am going to blog.

bye(:

retrospect

the past year, has been one with little time to spare for myself.

yet, for the next few months, all i hope to have, is time spent wisely.

the past few weeks have been hectic, though the promos are over.

i think this lifestyle is worse? 

been to queens way for 3 times this week liao, going agian nxt tuesday to get e jackets.=.=

we stocked bout 90 packets of maggi mee for the china trip, which we predict is not enough. 

haha.

abit weird huh....

i suggest we hav cooking lessons at night, but they all were against my idea....wad a bad start..hahah.

ok...so i am left with 5 days before my departure.

Lots to do. Yet what i really want, is a nice break with time to think.

its time for me to review my past year. 

retrospect.

back

hi...i am back from inexistence.

Lol... i like damn long nvr blog already.....

damn lazy and like abit busy la pw....

anw, ogl grpings are out.... nt too bad la...my grp...

but...haahah...disappointed

nvm....booked a bbq pit accidentally...

hope they want go...

bye(:

back from promos.

wad an experience.
today's and yesterday's grades were not too bad except chinese which i failed-,-
and i jus am damn unlucky, always etting 1 mark lower than the next grade.
hmm.just have to wait for disaster tml...hahah...joke, chem and econs.

anw, time passes really fast.

the days have passed,
and the times have changed.
with that look in the eyes,
one gets traumatised,

yet one must be ask
to realise the truth.
the truth impossibility.(If there is such a word)
HAHA

bye(:

wake up to do eom=.=

went to the yellow ribbon concert that day.

i think the concept of such a concert is really good,  these ex-convicts do need a gate way, to their real life, 

yet the society are jus rejecting them. you can easily feel it. During the performance, when an ex-convict come out,

and perform, the audience will be like awestruck for a moment, then they will start clapping. wth is wrong? 

its jus a discrimination that we have stuck to for a long time, and it is definitely difficult to remove it quickly.

but ddefinitely, this project is opening up the concept of the masses, allowing such ex-convicts to live a more 

meaningful life.

on the other hand,  back to reality, next two weeks of my life is totally filled with uncertainty, without any path for me to move,

and the thought of promos jus doesnt appeal to me.

haha.. yea..

thats all..

bye(:

nt feeling well yet again...
mentally..

wow, ytd was quite optimistic, yet, after anothr day of skl, the course is jus redirected.
just tired and tired, dont understand you all.

jus want to seek aslyum.

bye(:
cant wait for friday la.
ha.

realised that , some times,

what matters, is reassurance.

think about this,

you are walking on a clift,and reaching the end.

you want to stop , for fear that you fall,

yet, a voice jus ask you to keep moving, and that nothing is wrong

you do so, and realise, there is light at the end of the road.

sound stupid.



think it in another way, and it wont.



hope reassurance is what i get as soon as possible.

only through that, will one be motivated to move beyond his capabilitites.



bye!~

today, went out with kenneth chew....
long no see him, rly good to haf a cch buddy again.
did study, but nt as much as i wished.

anw,
time is jus running short, and things are jus coming and going in our lives...
do i haf to think that much now?
or do i jus do wad i can and letnature takes its course?


we shall see.

back!

HI!
it has been along time since i blogged here,
everytime i come online, jusdamn lazy to blog la...wtf....

ok...update of my life, last wk was...dno how to say la..devastating, due to my academic progress...
however, did rly haf fun last wk, like, e stupid supersoaker, got into finals=.=
den , i went to parkway, for 3 consecutive days(including today).

bought jacket, cheap, but avg looking, but happy

haf been trying to read mr. y book, but i no time, instead,
reading another book i bought, a non fiction, go for gold.

there are damn lots of quotes inside, but i will jus put one that i jus saw just now.
'Make every day your masterpiece' - John Wooden, UCLA coach.

it may nt seem wordy, but it certainly has created a meaning in my life, or at least today.
haha.

however, my days, in the past week has nt been good at all, with problems cropping up here.
hey. i dont know what has happened in the recent days, i just hope, u will at least talk.
books.

btw, promos, is rly gonna be screwed..hahah.
so guys, jus see me becoming non-scholar!haha
bye

definitely wont do well for chem tml.
dis wk end is an exhaustive one. but one that gave me great self realisation
today, is nt worth mentioning, was nt feeling well for a huge part of the day.
yea.
furthermore, samuel words made me think that i might haf faired much better in TJ.
wad can i say? he was true.

tats all...
hoping the past is the present

sorry

i am really sorry.
i did not mean to offend u in any sorts, and i know i have said something wrong,
some thing that made you even worse of wad u felt in the first place.
i jus dont know how to put my thoughts into words at such situations.

the most important thing is ur wellbeing now. Hopefully u are feeling better
when you read this post. sorry

religion....
why do people fear in approaching this topic?

jeremy, gave a valid point. faith is the word.
belief is something else. nothing wrong, to believe something else, but have faith in another thing.

it doesnt make sense...but i noe bout it.


my previous post, is against all faiths.
no objection...but yea...

made up my new decision....
will try to preevnt any thing from hindering it...
haha...bye, hope to have morehope

"the law of life cant be avoided. the law comes into operation the moment we detach ourselves from our mother's womb. all struggle and misery in life is due to our attempt to arrest this law or to get away from it or in allowing ourselves to be hurt by it. the fact must be recognized. a profound unmitigated loneliness is the only truth of life. All else is false"

Instrumental quote...
up to you to believe it.

do i hav to keep using words that requires reading btw e line?
why dont i hav my freedom of speech.
the freedom of speech in an open, democratic world, is all
jus totally nt true.
afraid of being critisiced by others, scared of offending others,
and lastly, very concious of our own image.
even when, at time,s no one is concious bout ur image.

maybe, i will, oneday, jus write all out, yet, exercising control.
is what i will do for the timebeing.

back from camp, and back to reality

going to camps, are always an escapade.
However, this camp, was a very ehthusiastic one, and very fun one,
but i think, in terms of knowledge wise, i din learn much,
the coaches, i think ,although did cover content, were not v. passionate bout their work.
ok.dats all for camp.

my days have been really busy, cos of the camp.
and workload, is really heavy? but i think ,its good to juggle the time i have.

the skl has been part of my stressed up mind now.
Aside that, there has been smth bugging my mind lah huh?
rly still in the grey zone, with many bumps and humps.
dno wad to do with that la.

anw, my mid year results is nt really encouraging, i got one of e highest for physics,
yet i clinched the bottom few, for both chem and maths.

Tan Teck Meng Scholar? ppl come say, wad kind of scholar are you?
i am nt like affected by that, but i do think abt it, as in
i realise, i am rly jus disappointing myself, but not throwing my face.

Getting top 15% for promos is really something i have to work towards, and i need try very hard.
so i guess. i have to schedule my life now.
yea
tats all
bye

simple and quick.
disappointment,
the thought jus make me realise the reality of the world.
jus be permanent, and stop wavering.

bye

jus deleted tat post again.
i find it really stupid la...
i dun wan be so lame, and childish again?
i jus dont see any reason, or any meaning in doing so....
yea..
so its gone

anw, my days are nt better, as time is a factor
battling with my spirits, and emotions, i jus cant take it.
yea
forget it...
i wan my shoe.
ahha.

back to blogging after lyk 2 wks or so...
lol
hhaha
did alot of things during these two weeks.
but i am quite sure, dis wk.
i walked at least 10km this wk la..i think even 20 km.-.-
wadever..duwan talk abt it
anw, i got new head fones...damn happy....
as music is all of my life....
good...

lol...i loosing my high, so i wun blog much liao

nxt wk..rlymust study liao!. ..
sian.

ok

ok, i am gonna blog bout colleen, wth la...
shes gone for camp, so ...maybe she will read it when she come back.
yea...i must thank her... for her being such a nice fren=.=,
k la.
serious.

erm.
ya, i also dno y i am her good fren....lyk.
we are from so diff worlds la, =.= wth rite...she so COOL, i so uncool...
yea..i dno la,
i jus hope my presence has been helpful for the past few months,
and hope, u are coping alright with ur life now, yea, hope u noe wad i mean.
diff to talk things out la....but hope my PHYSICAL pressence helps.
yea...
k.
THANKS=.=...wadever.

bye

ok..lame.

e previous deleted post was real, but was supper lame,
ok and sorry to u two...HAHA...

ok. anw, my life has been pretty sian, wth la..damn busy sitll..
and i am lyk finally settling down dis wk.
today i damn happy i planned to go swim.
i swim half way rain,=.=
but i continued, tmd.and my butt i think is torn, cos i damn long nvr swim.
dne suddenly swim ..wth
ok.
i read colleen's blog, so sweet(=.=)haha.
yea, she has been areal nice fren of mine(:
thks ar...


hmm.wan blog more, but i am damn tired, so
maybe tml la...bye

wth.

hi.
i am back.


life has been rather eventful these days huh?
haha...
nt been at home for one full day,
and i am nt happy about it.
chopin nocuturnes are waiting for me , while
my parents are nt happy abt me nt being at home.

mean while,
it has been quite eventful?
i found out, lyk.
i talk quite abit to chung cheng people...haha...
omg, jus now on e fone with shi cheah, so gay...we spoke of almost nth.
jus crapping...
hmm.
den,
ytd, slpt at 3plus, had a great talk,
rly i felt guilty...
make sure it wun happen in my future.....sorry.

ok...tats e past...
anw,
as time passes, the sun sets, and that light, jus diminish, into darkness
hmm.
wth rite...
biasness is jus guiding me along, exploring more , and realising more.

i am tired...
jus want to study, but cant..


anw
i found all my blog post so lame and emo,
hah
i nt emo, jus writin emo things...
OR MAYBE I AM?
..
watever

haha...today is elearning day, or ytd, or fri was elearning day.
did manythings, but nt elearning.
went to go collect my cert frm cch, saw teo, vin, jian an, and few more at e bus stop,
den.
went to eat, with colleen and zhan rui,
den, found out how busy we are now,
den, read things, and thought quite abit about it,
cos it certainly has close relations with my past..HAHA.

k...den,
return home, den went out agian,
haf quite abit of time thinking while strolling with mum at ikea.
wth...
rly nid to seek an end to things.

and, found out, relationships, are things that are difficult to handle, so
i shall nt talk abt them.

but rather, i think i have nothing toblog, as i bet ppl will nt like my blogging style.
so i shall leave tihs place and go to my haven.HAHA
so, i may nt blog much liao.
tats all.

words are gold.

lots to talk about, but i dont haf e want, to write down already, unlyk jus now,
i read mr tan's blog for the first time..
rly am impressed by him, although, hes hobies abit gay, jus lyk me.
HAHA.
words are gold, yet, people use them, without thinking,
causing them, to lack lustre, making them meaningless.

i have been thinking about many things, and hopefully, i will be as successful as mr tan,or mr loh,
when i am at their age. or even more successful. it clearly shows the success of the y generation huh?

ok.
now on to other things.

today,. wth...i rly wan die la...

its rly tiring, and hard to keep awake, esp if u slp at 4? and when u are sick?
while doing chem test, i was shivering.
jus wanting to finish the day was my objective huh?

thoughts jus kip runnign thru my head?
thinking abt futures,
thinking abt everything.
maybe, less suspense will work better huh?
haha
...
bye

hah

hmmm...going to do some emo talk now...HAHA.

have any one thought about life after JC?
army, den university.
thats when u emerge to a world, where only loneliness looms
friends, the soul to everyones lives, will only become enemies in disguise,
as the frens we all have now, will eventually, be the ones, we compete against.

hopeless, yet one yearns.
afraid, so one waits.
HAHA..

live on.

sick?

8in the morning, shld be in skl, but i am here, slacking...
ahha...missd ytd's skl...abit regret, cos it was lalahong's last day.
last day being rep for him...haiz...but nvr go...
disappointment...
later i am goinn to go skl bah..go for pw, gp....


as time flies by, everybodys' changing.
in a world of dreams, only few succeed.
couples galore, only few remain,
as time passes by, situations change.

as for me, nth changes(:

failure?

ytd scholarship interviews,

i dun lyk my performance.



but i think,.

wads most disappointing is my mentality,



disappointment, only one can see,

feeling it, is what i am experiencing.



check lj.much more.



bye(:

lol...wtf...slp?

haha.....i am back from TJ's chamber concert....
lol...damn funny la...jun lin's teacher was cooking in front of everyone, but jus salad.....

den....jun lin, main actor in e skid.....
den......e strings were FANTASTIC.....
den dey play RACH 2, pathetic la...e pianist....lyk snail....
no wonder jun lin sound even nicer!!!
hah

i enjoy e second song by them....rly nice....
and e strings songs...were nice, but rly, they shld buck up....
haha...
damn insulting la.
i noe i am damn cynical.....
wadever.....
but...nxt concert i looking forward, tj's band concert, rly, i think vj's star wars , shld do well....
if they haf e standard. A challenging piece indeed.
Aiya...wad a critic i am...
anw...
life is rly abit weird la..
wth.
ytd nite...1.5 hours of slp...rly gna die, dno y sitll here....
anw.
PI must get EE
and nxt wk....all fullmarks...hahah.
war has jus begun....

anw....holding up ur head, looking at the star,
far away, unreachable yet a jewel in disguise.....
i guesss goals in our lives are lyk these, esp my goal in life.

singapore flyer

just went to e singapore flyer!!!..haha...erm...e view was rly good, but went at e wrong time...e sun was horrible, it was 6 lyk tat...den e sun so strong...but din rly enjoy it, cos busy taking pictures, wish i had a better camera.

days passed in mjc,

life has been quite routine,

happenings, made my life quite sorrowful, and some times fun...

my pool has gradually inproved, but still has room for more imporvement...

my love life has nt been happening, and i hope that nth much happens...unless.

haah....shooting has been good, yet abit disappointing...

overall, i am satisfied with my studies....

yet... all i can say,

is my life now, is nt v. smooth, and i am nt very happy with it!...

anw...enuf bullshit and emo...

some stupid pictures below...

back...and sian

hi, much to say...
but its monday,
no time to say.

week end, quite eventful, as in, i was quite satisfied with my events.
but, my work progress...tmd...i am slacker sia...
totally nvr put any concentration, and like i nid study...
wa...douglas is pro in pool,
ha..no link.
ok..
met with colleen, after so long...wtf....abit short la e time.
but sry la.. nid go home...
hmm.co concert was damn lousy...kns.
want watch tchaicosky concert, i shall check SSO's planner.

i think i blog like a girl.

nvm...
many thoughts pass me again..haha...
i think my closer frens ard me are abt e same as me la..their situation,
hah..but i am cluless of how i can improve e situation.

i think, i nid get a break! haha.
when e time comes la...ok...
tats all for now.

back.

i am finally back to blogging.
been rather busy. or can say rly busy for e past two wks.
i think i shld give in more thought to studies..although i am uqite happy with my progress of my studies now la...
hmm...
other pressing matters are the thoughts that are constantly going thru my head...
am i going to go for wad i want? the goals seem far away and they do not seem as easy as they seem.

i am still wanting to return to my sec skl days,and especially meeting up with great frens will be smth good for me now,
but i am jus too strained up.

nid to start realising myself, and my objectives...

much to say.

hectic life... really hectic...
nt joking sia...makes me tired, and all e running this wk, and exercises, to be precise, 4 days in a row,
makes me wan scream for joy.cos it builds me up. yet its jus rly exhausting.

ok..mentally, i am pretty strong now, realised that during shooting,
yet, i nid more time, to think thru many things going on.

jus dun understand, how we can believe in things, jus lyk tat...
& are frens jus dat simple?
haf u drawn a line, and make sure u dun cross it due to ur actions.
tml cnt go out, so sun will be my only day out, and it really means time management

found e motivation in everything, and dis make me move ahead, hopefully faster...and more efficient.

ha.
i think my blog is full of shit, cos i doubt anyone understand my shit .

bye

finally a post!!!

last whole week has been turbulent.
and i shld say, a wk, tiring , but nt worth n nt tat eventful.
jus made one stupid rash decision that landed me into so much trouble.

ok enuf abt e bad stuff...at least..
i am getting settled...pacing up...
and lyk.....haiz...hope sat can go out with c.
sian....must do many things during e wk end...and my PI must be done....
got topics liao... interesting, but will they be possible exploration points?
haha...seeing many new pairs in my circle of frens...
funny sia....

anw....shall nt blog much, as this feel lyk a post in which, i write what u want hear,
nt wad i want say...
HAHA
k.
bye...look at e time.

back posting...

lol...been gone for awhile,
nt v. long acutally...but jus feel lyk i wan stop blogging.
hmm...
dno wads e reason,
but lol..these few days rly damn tough...
tmd...7periods straight....ytd...killer...
and tmd lalahong,,,,,,stop aiming me la...u short fag..
i must get a for e consolidation test sia...but now i nt done with homework...
wth...
hmm....
hah..anw...no time blog liao
i shall intro u guys to this blog
http://peterloh1991.blogspot.com/
haf fun....

wen jie

actually slpt only abt 10 hrs for ytd nite...
but i am feeling alrite....
haf a sore throat and also a flu....

lots of homework nt done finish, but i doubt i will concentrate much on those...
i will definitely put physics test as a piority,and nt e hw...

anw..emptiness got me thinking and thinking abt council again,
2 councillors talked me ytd nite.....
yea....
i dno really which one to choose, due to e frequency of the trainings or activities.
definitely, both are worthwhile, yet, its still e time factor that is holding me back

i guess , we really are running a tight schedule in our lives....
many wants yet limited time to complete them....

Shall start composing scores soon, as lots of tunes come and go too often.

i seem v. random here..lol....

ok....i jus cnt start doing work la....

anw, hopefully, class will be good and everyone settle down.
see ya.

back

hi(: this will be a very short but hopefully important post...

jus came back frm chalet...i wld say i am rather happy la...hahah

but i am quite dl by e environment we were in...lyk at battle field...
ok...
anw..
to make it quick...

i want to apologise for my explicitness in my posts..haha...
maybe u guys think i am v. gl...but...

yep....rly nid take back my words...cos i dun mean them yep(:

see ya....go slp first .
bye

i shall attempt a post in which no one will understand

living now, in this world, many troubles are brought forth and joy are also experienced
yet, with the closest near u, e further u will feel.
as we embark on our goals, actions speak otherwise, and set u down,
stoping u frm achieving the targets.

mutual understandings, is impt to a large extent, yet without forgiveness and with selfishness,
nothing is resolved in anycase.
being occupied with many, will result in no single company.

hah
lame...
LOL
..
ok
anw.
sry colleen, tml i rly duwan go out....sry.
haiz...
sian.....
shall start doing work(:

haf a nice day

inexplainable feeling

ok, dis shld be a long post....i dont noe if anyone will read, but
if my mood dun affect me enuf, i will complete a long post.

today, had a usual long day, went for skl, den had cca.
alot of things went thru my mind....i was rly thinking alot..
cos it was a raining day, and raining day, is lyk...damn disturbing.
ok...today..got to meet our cgt, i tot was that center parting guy,
but is a chi teacher...hes rly good..but i am abit sry...i disturbed him.
sorry mr liang, i think tats one flaw i nid change.

next...cg rap, i shall leave my comments for myself huh? since quite
a few of u guys noe my blog liao.yea...haha.
anw..i haf to decide between lyk shooting and student council.
parents...obviously haf a different decision from mine.
so, i dno, i will still consider and come up with an ans later...

anw, i guess, mjc, is nt such a mugger skl after all, i saw pictures,
pictures of e skl students, and some are pictures of e concerts.
and e people are ppl who jus study and play at e same time.
those who dont, we shld nt blame them.
i guesss...i shall jus mix with e fun ppl? and also haf selfcontrol,
and self time management.

jc's rly hectic huh? i cnt wait for nxt wk's chalet...cos.i dno la...
can relax and do nth for 3 days bah...

den, jc also cnt lyk anyone liao hor...HAHAH.guess i shall gif up and
concentrate on my achievements(:
but definitely its a shadow that will be haunting me.hah...
anw, congrats to isaac and rachel!!!haiz...

lol...kk......no more to write...nt exactly a long post. cos i lost my lustre and lost my momentum
while talking on msn.
nvm.
e rest shall be left for only me and my heart(:
bye

no mood?

hi guys...finally i am updating..
now i noe dat got more ppl looking at my blog liao
maybe its time to watch my words?hahah..
anw..today is a long day. had fun at soccer today...
did a damn nice finishing with left top corner!!!hah.
lame la...ok...
den..colleen, sorry for being so rude jus now...rly.
i din noe e manners....and...god bless her....
hope u wun take it hard. i always here as ur best fren(:

ok
went for tuition after dat...anw. i sound gay here.
ok. maybe i am gay.

anw...got sqdouting to ubin...wan go...but that pressence
stoping me...pressence of a person.cant u jus approach me
and stop ur hidding and fucking face.
rly nid some one to talk to.....i dno la...but dun approach me
unless u haf e confidence to ...serious.
i am nt easy to open my mouth...
anw....un reachable is e term.yea!

our surroundings is wad we live for.without them, theres no us.
without us, they wun haf fun...
treasure it.

bye

some thoughts...

hi.....its lyk.
erm...sat and i am at home...
YAY!!!
cos its almost impossible for me to be at home....but later, got tuition..
its damn stupid to haf a tuition in which u dun haf anyliking for.waste my time...
aiya...dno la...its at 7 till 9
ok.
nvm tat...ytd, went for movie, jumper is nice. nt v. nice..but interesting.
den...take neoprint...yea...ahem.knn is still v. irritating.
but nvm....den bowling.....ok.found back my form, but score still lyk. shit for now.
den....some one dulaned me again....

back home....finally....
ok

sometimes, eunice...u shld jus wake up urmind.....and stop living in ur shadows.
we must definitely come to reality and try to face it. ur hiding only puts u in more misery.

haiz....its jus a vicious cycle aint it? lets say , u lyk someone, den some one likes u...u reject e person
whom like u, den e person u lyk also rejects u.
ahha.

no wonder its called LOVE.lol...
ok....
enuf lamo emo....

nature will take its path, yet, without any shit done, there will be no out come

hey...aha

hihi....
back to post, today
shit day....boring...
my shooting detiorate...yea....
anw...erm
abt my previous post..i guess i shld lyk. apologise.
cos lyk. v. bad...and i lyk amplifying e problems...lol...

ok....now....erm...everything lyk. settled...cos 2nd intake liao....so..no prob....

hmm....
nxt time dne blog bah huh!?

anw...zi yan, if u see this, pls tag...(:

hihi.

hey...i make this short...
but to those frm 08S104,
i hope to tell u guys smth...
pls...stop gossipping ...if possible k?
its worthlesss...get a life...

ok.
on lighter note!
i spent 100plus on presents!!!
haha....cool aye?
ok...hope u guys like them...(:

bye.

Happy New Year!!!

Greetings!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
haha...

today, was quite eventful....
at first, cousins nvr talk much...
cos we long nvr see...den towards end...talked...
ok...
erm...nxt.
haiz..
my gut feel worse...

dno leh...i jus lyk....think alot of things.
wondering abt what is true and what is nt...
maybe i am overworrying...but...i doubt so.
u think its funny?telling me its jus a joke and all...
wadever la huh?

ok...nxt...
yay!colleen's mum out of hospital!
hmm..hope its a good sign?
and hope dey having a happy new year(:


i guess i still cnt reach out to ppl...
maybe its jus e 'it' factor?
must try to achieve it huh?
nvm...finish e 7 habbits first, den read tat book.

jus thinking of my future...and thinking what i will achieve and what i will nvr get.
ahha...bullshit all e way..

good dat i can change my tix...
found out my dad is getting older by e day,
although he still look young.

hope we spend more time lyk tat(:

OK..
sian...

emo!emo!!(:
see ya(:

haf been having alot of contact with my frens....
ogl camp over...
some ppl jus make me fed up...
some igrl frm tkss....
nvm.

sun met with my np frens...
rly wonder how we stil are frens....nt bad frens btw...

yea...jus went for few hours...but dey were such great hours....

nvm then...my workload is pilling up..
haiz.....
jacq...here i am talking abt u.....happy?

ok...

rly.....i jus cnt stand u....
cnt u grow up and nt be so immature and spoilt?

yea....

and...
it aint feel good to be lied to.....
yea...
pls....tell me e truth....~

and to all, i dun lyk anyone yet...seriously.....if i do lyk some one, i will definitely let u guys noe(:

yea....
enuf....
shutup...i noe i am rude.

aint it jus weird

i rly doubt this blogis for the public.i should get a meter to see how many ppl read it.
believe it or not, i got 8points formy olevels.
getting good points?
good or bad...
mjc or tjc...
does it really matter.am i jus weird or am i putting pressure on myself.
i think i have to jus get use to what i have and not make so much noise about it.
i have been thinking ...abt me, and abt my frens lyk rebecca.

am i rly a good person? or jus one who irritates...
am i lieing to my self or isit good to do this.
i rly am lonely once more...or have i changed?
i realised the true meaning or being in a real world,
in one where life goes on, byurself, and no one else.
walking alone is smth i get used to now, and i really hope,
i am able to build up my own personality, into one in which will benifit my surroundings.

i rly dont want to talk more....busy is one thing, but satisfaction is another...

turing back allows one to seee the path in which he took, while facing front, one then realise the meaning or life.

me.

so there is a problem with me isit?
tio fucking gl by e stupid councillor...say i write too little...maybe i nt a true leader la...

wtf....
nvm...u guys watch.
now i haf no drive of being e house cap liao...
lyk i can even be.
now...dun feel lyk doing anything....or am i jus trying to escape from reality?
1 mistake rly hits all...lyk wad kukubird's trainer said...
now...wen xin, is angry wit me?
lyk i got do anything....
yea......and shes in my grp....

and am i still nt attracting attention?
or am i jus insignificant...
pls..

i am down, if no one noticed.
cos i cnt afford to pull u guys down...
only silence will prevail...

sian

back to sk...haha....sian.

lots to say....but little to reveal...MUAHAHAA..

wads new, tats me....hah...haiz....got alot of new ppl i get to noe...all nt bad....but quite hurt many ppl liao....
but a few eye candy....haiz....got one...nice ar...^^but no...wun get into any relationship...
haha...lac la...too tired to say much...dno la..i sound so cheerful...but i guess i nt....

ok bye(: