i just cant forget.
just cant let it go.

woah! dead blog.

shall entertain myself here since it shld be the last post of this decade.

J2 has allowed me to try many things but has also restrained me in terms of

the no of stuff i can do due to time constraint.

As time flies, individuals grow, yet, it sucks if u feel like there is no progress in terms of

mental maturity.

People do change, and seldom do we see them change for the better, but such

transitions are tough yet sometimes rapid.

As we grow old, the need for a life time partner is important, and it is definitely

the main goal of my life.

My heart does yearn for people whom are unique, yet an invisible barrier prevents me

from progressing.

As the new year arrives, I do not have any specific goals, but have plenty of aspirations in

mind. Will i settle down and achieve them?

Time.

Time is all that i need.

religion.

relationship.

rejuvenation.

there are jus so many things crowding the little space up there..

maybe everything will grey out into a space of uniform cohesion.

this blog seems over cooked words of mine. cos what ever written here is jus so expired.

hahah...maybe i shall get the feel den blog more here.

take care frens, cousins.

i shall attempt to make a long post here as i have not done that since a long time.

past blog posts were just meaningless posts talking bout things only i understand.

maybe i shall get down-to-earth here!(:

past one month has definitely been a life journey for me, in terms of weight,

i have no idea what my body is doing, but i seem to be down in weight, but i haf ate 

carls junior for bout 3 times this mth, and definitely more den 5 times of subway.

that aside, my past weekends have practically been spent at SMU, studying. 

Its a great place to hang out for me, as its convenient and entertainment is everywhere.

Though i have been there so often, my revision has not even started, it has all been just 

homework.

That aside, my past few weeks have been really busy, but people hearing this will jus say tat i am always busy. but this time i will rly talk bout some academic journeys i have been thru.

I went for the NHSS interview, and got rejected. And i am particularly unhappy as i felt that i did perform. Most probably i made a mistake in one of the questions, which was quite servere. Congrats to shenna & Jia Hao though! Moving on, i have started the MPS(Meet-e-people-session) with Miss Penny Low. She is really experience and good. DPM Teo Chee Hean came by last monday and i had a little debate with him, which had a futile outcome. Today was spent at NUS & RI. The NUS USP 'orientation' was quite insightful, and made me reconsider my goals for my undergrad studies. The S Dhanabalam talk was some what unexpected, though certain points mentioned by him and other VIPs confirmed some of my mindsets.

On the whole, i have taken a step into the academic/ aliitle political realm. This has really made me think alot. Jeremy has been extremely helpful too, giving me great ideas and perspectives of life. 

I dare say, the failure in NHSS has made me reflect & reassess myself. The past month have allowed me to understand human nature better in particular, and even myself. However, though i feel that it is meaningful knowing such things, i wish that i could just carry on for a period of life that does not require me to consider such factors. 

Life for the following few months will definitely get more tiring, but what i hope is a absolute enlightnment.

Hopefully tml can watch angels & demons!!!

long not here...

finally back here to blog.

as usual. life has been jus so busy.

really not much time for a person to stop and think.

but i have been really thinking alot about life? and many social issues.

its jus a complexed world out there.

having many is one thing.

but having one great fren is uncomparable.

have been studying for the past two weeks.

and its finally abreak but i have been at my usual place for my past 3 days-.- yishun...

and i overslept today... wanted to go...but cant...though tml and tue will be going...

hope it will end of with a bang.

hi,

i am back here finally. 

much have been happening in my daily life, but of little significance.

or i prefer to refer it as not accomplishing.

haha...

sad and dull life.

dont feel like blogging much yet. want to put pictures.

but another time. jus returned frm training.

bye(:

back from one tired week.

went shopping with 2 gays till 10 plus and reached home at 12.

was quite relaxing as it wasnt all bout studying.

there is cca tml and sat.

yet the anticipation in me is jus as much.

the surroundings i  am in makes me feel envious.

people getting up and around, close to one an other.

yet the distance between us is jus so far.

or maybe there is no single route linking the likings ofus.

bye(:

another stupid week end to past except for the fun during cny.

this is real bad.

hopefully what i fear off wouldnt happen to you.

its just heart breaking.

yea.

bye

past like 2 wks and i nvr do e new year resolution blog and also the update of my past year sia....

wth rite. nvm la...

anw.

back to school.

today was a killer. woke up like a disabled, feeling damn weak. supposed to go breakfast with my sis but din.

cos i too tired.

went skl felt damn uneasy for all lessons. and then peter brought his 'air freshner' today. almost want to vomit.

cca, saw the imba casper.but i think he abit haolian. coached the rest of the team, felt satisfied, though they did perform well,

nt well enuf i guess.

den go for pt. wtf. should have just go yishun train. 

anw, got new people class sia...cool man..yo yo.

bye.

1st post of year 2009. this is supposed to be a post on the events of my past year.

i got the pictures.but i dno if theres a way to upload them all at one time. so i like delaying for days.

anw.

went to ikea and giant, and saw 2 stars, fiona xie and some star search guy i think e winner or wad.

my sis say they were there to avoid the crowd and ppl, exp when it was 10plus 11 plus.

while i said they jus seem to be highly  interested in home appliances.

bought many things. like it at night esp at ikea & giant. and when skl starts. no one 

freedom. just hope there will be other more shops like carrefour there or smth.

yea.. 

anw bye...blog tml with the pics.

lets have a change of mood.

its jus such a displeasure to see people not being what they presumed themselves to be.

while people here are taking taxi or even going 3 places a day.

disappointment huh?

hah not really.

cos i am jus used to it.

haha...joke...

today was dead tiring..

shall blog bout it tml or smth.

Hi,

for the 4 days since fri, i have been to orchard.

and for the past many days i have not been sitting down to take a rest

pissed.

saturday

christmas tree at raffles city.

me and my sis walked from bugis till orchard scotts-.-

this is a damn classic pic. hope i can get a better camera to capture it better.

at night it looks nice but haunted.

then we were at taka. with some church having some weird christmas deco.

wth are there indonesian community, japanese etc etc. its christmas-.- 

no link.

lol. our attempt to take pic when we are in the middle of the road. many ppl staring-.-

and we are like a couple man....

sun, me and my sis walked from city hall to scotts again.

wtf la. damn tiring. 

and we caught YES man. damn nice show.

its damn stupid but its rly worth it. i think its e best followed by 

nick and norah's infinite playlist.

tues, ytd.

skipped training to go celebrate my dad's birthday. its actually on 24th.

but e restaurant no space. so celebrate on 23...

the food was jus not worth e money la... to me...

though they were nice. but not exceptional.

my dad criticising bout the presents...as usual

yet another couple shot(:

the lights are good...and the reflection is nice 

romantic spot.

christmas tree at central

today at home.

wl. the cake was a real disappointment.

i am just really bored and practically blogging everything bout my life.

anw merry christmas!!!!

and tml or later should be fun.

damn. we should have went clark quay today instead.

skl work is still piling up. i think we should just burnt them and ignore their existence.

i dno when i can start doing and revising.

sun is monthly shoot.

thats all...

bye!

These are the best shots in my life-,-

but i had a stupid quarrel with coach zhang befor that.

i told her. if i use her method there will be a huge recoil.

den my bulets fly. den after 10 shots of shit firing. i did it.

but i still cant get the 'feel' of it. so i am not sure bout using this.

after e 2 cards i screwed up the last card-,- and got this.

den some one steal my cards-,-

ok. i am bored hence such post.

nxt week is coming and i am looking forward.

bye

this morning kena pangsehed by some ppl

so went orchard in late afternoon with mum to get christmas presents.

den, went training 

which i was damn happy as i hit 95/96. my personal best.(i am not being proud)

but i am proud of it la.

shall blog bout it tml=.=

maybe a picture to go with. 

heres some pictures of the past few days...

sunday...went training den went for the tjc concert

wl. the songs were nice but the band screwed up. 

only celebrate was alrite. the rest...cmi.serious. sorry for e tj readers.

I ate dis with jia yong in the afternoon. damn big...yankee burger

at the concert.

have no idea why they like the orange side of my jacket

they were testing my camera's smile shutter-.-

volcano ramen lol...

freak i spent 30plus on food that day...wth.

monday i wnet to vivo and tried kim gary restaurant. like i posted tat day

got my zara shirt changed.

tues, went training at the wrong time. i went at 130 when the training starts at 4

lucky got two other idiots like me who went early. 

in e end the training ended at 8 and i reached home at 1030wth.

ytd.

went out with dl and 107cum ppl.

damn funny went cafe cartel with ppl u dont rly talk with.

the rest sucks. din help to socialise.

so i was there in desperation for words to talk to them.

den.

went to buy bouquet of flowers for syjia. 

acting as tourist, cos another tourist was taking pic like this behind me-,-

my boyfriend

nice view.

yea. thats all.

going out now.bye

long day again

went many places today. 4 actually

anw, jus reached home...ha. i think i saw the person  man....lol...

but as still not sure.

went vivo was nt bad.tried kim gary's hk restaurant.

food was best for all e hk shit restaurants..

den...brian from cch tot my sis is my girlfriend. 

do i look so old or does she look soyoung? 

she say her friends also say that.

heres a pic.

haha...

like couple?

=.=

have not been blogging much recently.

i dno y sia....haha

ok...past week has been quite alrite.

monday played soccer with np guys, gx, yong sheng guys & ivan lim gang.

den kns...hurt my back yet again. dis time i flew and hit directly on my butt bone.

den we went swimming after soccer, den lunch den table tennis, den billard den some @#(&$ steamboat.

@#$% it man.

tues went training......fri went training too...

i will nvr take 39 back home again. 

training ended at 930, but i reached home at 12 including a short taxi ride from bedok

today went to catch nick & norah's infinite playlist....

its was a damn stupid and weird show.

with gays all over. but it was certainly entertaining.

tml will be training followed by hopefully pool and then tj's band concert...

quuite loooking forward to it. though i haven done my work on e songs first.

played the piano abit i guess.. starting on songs for christmas day. in case.hahah

shldnt be a prob.

mentally it has been rly weird and confused. 

lj for more(:

bye....

tml nid wake up at 7 again.