i just cant forget.
just cant let it go.

woah! dead blog.

shall entertain myself here since it shld be the last post of this decade.

J2 has allowed me to try many things but has also restrained me in terms of

the no of stuff i can do due to time constraint.

As time flies, individuals grow, yet, it sucks if u feel like there is no progress in terms of

mental maturity.

People do change, and seldom do we see them change for the better, but such

transitions are tough yet sometimes rapid.

As we grow old, the need for a life time partner is important, and it is definitely

the main goal of my life.

My heart does yearn for people whom are unique, yet an invisible barrier prevents me

from progressing.

As the new year arrives, I do not have any specific goals, but have plenty of aspirations in

mind. Will i settle down and achieve them?

Time.

Time is all that i need.

religion.

relationship.

rejuvenation.

there are jus so many things crowding the little space up there..

maybe everything will grey out into a space of uniform cohesion.

this blog seems over cooked words of mine. cos what ever written here is jus so expired.

hahah...maybe i shall get the feel den blog more here.

take care frens, cousins.

i shall attempt to make a long post here as i have not done that since a long time.

past blog posts were just meaningless posts talking bout things only i understand.

maybe i shall get down-to-earth here!(:

past one month has definitely been a life journey for me, in terms of weight,

i have no idea what my body is doing, but i seem to be down in weight, but i haf ate 

carls junior for bout 3 times this mth, and definitely more den 5 times of subway.

that aside, my past weekends have practically been spent at SMU, studying. 

Its a great place to hang out for me, as its convenient and entertainment is everywhere.

Though i have been there so often, my revision has not even started, it has all been just 

homework.

That aside, my past few weeks have been really busy, but people hearing this will jus say tat i am always busy. but this time i will rly talk bout some academic journeys i have been thru.

I went for the NHSS interview, and got rejected. And i am particularly unhappy as i felt that i did perform. Most probably i made a mistake in one of the questions, which was quite servere. Congrats to shenna & Jia Hao though! Moving on, i have started the MPS(Meet-e-people-session) with Miss Penny Low. She is really experience and good. DPM Teo Chee Hean came by last monday and i had a little debate with him, which had a futile outcome. Today was spent at NUS & RI. The NUS USP 'orientation' was quite insightful, and made me reconsider my goals for my undergrad studies. The S Dhanabalam talk was some what unexpected, though certain points mentioned by him and other VIPs confirmed some of my mindsets.

On the whole, i have taken a step into the academic/ aliitle political realm. This has really made me think alot. Jeremy has been extremely helpful too, giving me great ideas and perspectives of life. 

I dare say, the failure in NHSS has made me reflect & reassess myself. The past month have allowed me to understand human nature better in particular, and even myself. However, though i feel that it is meaningful knowing such things, i wish that i could just carry on for a period of life that does not require me to consider such factors. 

Life for the following few months will definitely get more tiring, but what i hope is a absolute enlightnment.

Hopefully tml can watch angels & demons!!!

long not here...

finally back here to blog.

as usual. life has been jus so busy.

really not much time for a person to stop and think.

but i have been really thinking alot about life? and many social issues.

its jus a complexed world out there.

having many is one thing.

but having one great fren is uncomparable.